I’m just like everyone else…….

Hello lovely people,

This is a blog post that is very honest. There are going to be people reading this, who may know me and think why in the hell would she write that out for the world to see. I don’t know is the answer and maybe you are right I am mad to share this. I probably am. It’s not about looking for sympathy or anyone to play me a violin. Everyone has insecurities and things that hold them back from the life the want to live, I’m just writing mine down.

I am my own biggest critic and I have a “you are not good enough” mantra in my head, always have. Why do I think like this I don’t know. I am always so genuinely shocked when people show that they like me. My gut reaction is “Really you actually like me?” or I question it to death to the point that I have convinced myself I’ve got it wrong they don’t like me.

I have the world’s most epic fear of failure that means unless I know I can do something 110% I’ll steer clear, just in case I might fail. That applies to everything in my life, relationships, work, activities, everything, fear holds me back.

When it comes to new people or people who are friends but not close friends, I question and tell myself “oh they probably don’t want me around”, “I’ll only be a bother to them”. Do they think this? I dunno maybe they do, the fact that I care is the problem. And to the ones who don’t think like that I’m apologising for all the uncomfortable moments my thoughts got the better of me. Please stick with me.

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Those who are close to me will know I have inherited my Dad’s excellent quick wit and a dash of my Mum’s epic sarcasm that means I deliver one liners without a second thought. The other day at work I used one such sarcastic line in a quick response, the other three ladies in the office were at the point of tears, and I was sitting like a fool thinking “God they really think I’m actually funny.”

I used to read blog posts from bloggers who said they suffer from anxieties and I would be reading it thinking “That must be terrible”.

It has literally only dawned on me that how I feel on an almost daily basis are anxieties too. I don’t do things I want to do for fear of what others will think or what others will say or that I will fail in doing them. Fear of not being good enough holds me back and has held me back from so much it’s ridiculous. The voice inside my own head telling me I’m not good enough is the loudest sound in the world.

I know there will be people who will read this and think, “She is just looking for attention!” I’m not!

There will also be the people who know me and who will go, “well that explains alot!”

There will be people who think “Who is she kidding she is out all the time.” Yes I am but remember social media creates the perfect picture of what you want to share. Unless of course you are like me and decide to write a blog post like this. Again I have no idea why I feel the need to share this. I do know I find writing therapeutic and that I like to know I’m not alone. Everybody has fears. I can’t be the only weirdo in the world who over thinks and over analyses.

There will be people who know me well and wonder who the hell I’m talking about because the person they know isn’t quiet at all, the person they know never shuts up lol. You have managed to knock down my walls and reveal the real me, the good the bad and the ugly. ❀

And there are my best friends who will know this story because they have listened to my over critical thoughts for years. And for that I thank you, I am lucky to have you and I love you more than any words could ever say. ❀

I still don’t understand why I have these fears or what I have to do to overcome them but I have them, just like everyone else…………

Lots of Love..

Laura

xxx

 

I’m not on anti-biotics!Β 

Hi guys,

Hope you are all keeping well!

 This post is inspired by the lovely Aisling M.Keenan, the editor of Xpose Magazine. I watched her snapchat story explaining why she is tee-total and her experiences of telling people she is like it is some sort of illness. 
While I’m not a pioneer, I wouldn’t class myself as a drinker. I have never been drunk and I’ve never been hungover. And sometimes when you tell people you don’t drink they look at you as if you have an illness. 

When I was in school and drinking was fast becoming the popular thing to do, I always felt a little left out because I knew this wasn’t for me. I didn’t like the taste of alcohol and genuinely still don’t love the taste of it. People in school looked at me like I was the spoil sport or the goody two shoes and this was never the case. 

When I tell people I don’t drink, the most common response I get is “At all?” In other words are you for real what do you mean you don’t drink! Lol! The next question I get is “How do you sit there and not get drunk?” or “Do you not get pissed off with all the drunk people?”

The answers to these questions are simple, I will drink on occasion but generally only a few, I’m not against alcohol I just don’t really like it. Nothing more complicated than that I’m afraid. I can sit there and not get drunk because I don’t find alcohol as a means to enjoyment. To me what I enjoy on a night out is being surrounded by my friends and just having a laugh. Do I feel the desire to be the person providing the laugh or the centre of attention? No, but just because I don’t drink doesn’t mean I’m going to spoil the fun either. And my friends will vouch I can stay till the last at any party.

Do drunk people annoy me? No, I can honestly say drunk people don’t annoy me in the slightest, now at times you will always get one that may just have had too much. I’m very lucky though to be blessed with great patients and most drunken annoyances go right over my head( and that has nothing to do with my little stature) 😜. Having said the majority of people I am surrounded by don’t annoy me drunk or sober because they are my friends. I wouldn’t be friends with people who annoyed me lol!

What really upsets me and bothers me about not being a drinker is when people try and push drink on you. They think you need to have a drink to enjoy yourself because they do. Unluckily for most of them I can be very stubborn when I want to be and the more they nag me to drink, the more I will dig the heels in and not drink lol! 

In Ireland drinking is so much part of our culture that the majority of social events revolve around drinking. This can be challenging at times, when your friends say their perfect Sunday is sitting in a pub drinking for the day, to me that is not my perfect Sunday. But, this just makes us different it doesn’t mean there is something wrong with either of us. To echo the word of Aisling Keenan “maybe we need to branch out and change it up a little” Would it kill us to bring our social occasions outside the pub? 

On nights out I often am the designated driver and mostly by choice, why would I want my friends paying money for a taxi when I can drive anyways. That’s daft in my opinion and I am happier knowing we’re all getting home safe or that we won’t be standing around a street at 3 in the morning and can’t get a taxi. 

So there you have a little insight into my world as a (relative) non-drinker. 

Yes I’m Irish, no I don’t drink and no I’m not on anti-biotics lol! 
Lots of Love 

Laura

Xxxx

   

 

No7 Hot Cloth Cleanser Review

Happy Sunday lovelies!

Apologies for being such a bad blogger lately! Busy with work and life I just didn’t have time to sit down and write for you. 

Anyways I’m here to tell you about a new purchase that I have fallen head over heels with! The No7 Hot Cloth Cleanser, oh Lordy this leaves your skin feeling so beautiful! 

I work in Marketing but I am hands up a marketer’s dream. I believe it all, the “marketing hype”, if they tell me it will make me look like Jennifer Lopez I’d believe it! So I needed to get my hands on a hot cloth cleanser after hearing so many bloggers talk about them. 

I also wanted to pick up the No7 Cleansing Brush which will be another post, and Boots had 3 for 2 on No7, so I picked up their hot cloth cleanser.  

 It’s a thick creamy consistency and it comes with a white Muslin cloth, now this is the only downside in my opinion. The cloth is too thin to hold the heat from the hot water and is nearly cold before you put it on your face. The second time I used this I just used a regular face cloth and the heat lasted longer.

It says for you to relax with the cloth on your face for 10 minutes to allow your skin to soak it all in. Apart from one time the longest I could last was 5 min, I’m just not used to sitting down for a whole 10 minutes and I couldn’t even look at my phone with a cloth over my face πŸ™ˆ but even with 10 minutes (5 with cloth, 5 without) my skin felt super super soft and moisturised. 

  
I have normal to combination skin and even leaving it on my skin for 10 minutes it didn’t leave my skin oily, considering it’s so thick I would have thought it might. It didn’t dry my skin either it just left it super soft and squeaky clean. I have been using it twice a week for 3 weeks now and a little goes a long way.. For €12.95 this cleanser will last ages and it is worth every cent. I will definitely be repurchasing. 

  
So if your wanting to get your hands on a really nice hot cloth cleanser I would definitely recommend this.
Lots of Love

Laura 

Xx

My favs on Snapchat

Hello lovelies,

How are you all? I hope you had a nice weekend, I have been dosed up with yet another cold that I literally did nothing over the weekend, but a rest is always good.

I have noticed a few bloggers have posted about their favourite snapchatter’s (If that is the term πŸ™‚ ) and I thought I would jump on the bandwagon. I am a little addicted to Snapchat I have to be honest and I love sitting down in the evening or at night and watching my favourite bloggers stories from start to finish. Why? I have no idea, I guess like most of us I am just nosy and like to see what everyone else is up to. I think Snapchat is great because you get to see more of the real person than you would in a general blog post. I had opinions on certain bloggers from their blog and Facebook posts and watching their snapchat has changed that for the better. You get to see more of the real people behind the blog if that makes sense & it’s all for the good. So here is a list of my favourite bloggers to follow, be warned though if you are not on Snapchat it can be incredibly addictive πŸ™‚ so join at your own risk, everyone else ye know the story lol! 

  
Pippa O’Connor – Snapchat username    -@pippa.oconnor

Pippa is one of my favourite bloggers, so I was delighted when she joined snapchat. On Pippa’s snap’s you get a sneek peak into her everyday life, what she is up to that day, what she’s wearing, little Ollie (Who is very cute) her make-up routine and general chats. I love how natural Pippa is, you get a real feel for the real Pippa, although the reason she is my favourite blogger in the first place is that she comes across incredibly genuine and that shows even more so on Snapchat.

Rosie Connolly from Hearts, Heels and Handbags – Snapchat username @rosieconnxxx

I am a relatively new follower of Rosie’s but without a doubt she is the first blogger I go to to watch and I will watch her story from start to finish even if it’s 1000 sec’s plus (It very rarely is unless she is doing a Q & A) What I love about Rosie’s snaps are she is just having a wee chat with her followers, updating them on her day, her gorgeous little boy Harry & her equally gorgeous fiancΓ© Paul. She is honest about the stuff she tells you and again like Pippa she just comes across as really really nice.

Marissa Carter from Cocoa Brown – Snapchat username @cartermarissa

Marissa is the brain behind Cocoa Brown range of tanning products. Her daily updates includes snippets from her office, what she is up to for the day, events she attends, quite similar to Pippa and Rosie. She again comes across as very genuine and her voice would put you to sleep, in the best way possible, she has such a soothing voice. She’s a strong supporter of women in business and finishes everyday with an inspirational quote.

Grace from FacesbyGrace – Snapchat username @facesbygrace23

Grace is the ultimate snapchatter, she literally takes you with her through her whole day. The only time she is not snapping is when she is working or in the bathroom I kid you not. Everything is snapped from getting up in the morning, going to the gym, what she eats for breakfast lunch and dinner. Her fluffy cat Sasha, her boyfriend Chris, everything is on Grace’s snapchat. This is I find though lets you really get to know Grace and I enjoy watching her day.

Ellen from Waxperts – Snapchat username @waxpertsellen 

Quite new to Ellen too but she is fast becoming my top snapchatter. I find her stories so easy to watch. Her little boy Cooper is the cutest 😊 she will chat about her general day. My favourite is when she does her Q & A, I find her refreshingly honest and just very easy to listen too! 

Charlene Flanagan – Snapchat username – @charlenefmakeup 

Charlene is a make-up artist not to far away from me based in Sligo. She snaps about her general days, has wee rants lol, her little dog Ella. Charlene is very chatty and chirpy and I enjoy her little rants or her stories about rescuing a bird lol! All that along with make-up tips lol! 

Tara O’Farrell – Snapchat username – @tara_makeup

Tara is one of Ireland’s top models and make-up artists. She snaps about her general day and gives make-up advice. She comes across as a genuinely lovely girl. 

So there is a few of my favs I have so many more that I follow I could be here all evening but these ladies above would be my tops! You can see how they take up my evenings lol! 

Who’s your favourites? 

Lots of love

Laura xxx

The Big Bad World

Hello lovelies,

Hope you are all well. Today I have a little blog post on something we all experience in some way or another. My little sister sat her Leaving Certificate exam this year and absolutely aced it, the little genius but in fairness she put the work in. Yesterday evening herself and some friends were discussing college, moving out, moving away from home and in a lot of cases in with strangers. Deciding on different courses, enough points, not enough points, will I repeat etc. These are a whole load of big decisions to be making at such a young age and society also gives them the impression these decisions will affect the rest of their lives, when really it will and it won’t.

  
I sat my Leaving Certificate 9 years ago (cringe, I only feel like it was max. 2 years ago) and thankfully I got the points for what I wanted to do, Interior Architecture. I was always creative, art being my favourite subject at school and I would sit and watch all the design shows for hours on end, I loved it and still do. I was always looking to change some room in the house and to do it a little different then the norm. So I started the perfect course for me.

  
Now I loved this course in first year but I struggled with the technical aspect of it, I was more creative and any sort of numbers hurt my brain literally, I just can’t do figures. But as anyone who knows me will know, I can be as stubborn as a mule when I want to be, and failure is not something that features in my vocabulary, I don’t give up on things. So I worked hard and I passed my first year exams with no real bother. So roll on second year, again I found the year tough but I was getting through it, and anyone who studies or has studied Interior Architecture will know that the course consumes your life, none of them will tell you it is a walk in the park even for the exceptionally talented.  So the course was project based for the core subject meaning that your final mark for the year was based on your final project and the work load was intense. Bang, the last 2 weeks of college when I was up to my eyes, I was struck with Glandular Fever which for anyone who’s had it you will know, it knocks you for six and you literally have no energy for weeks even months later. So I handed in my project, that I hadn’t been able to put 100% into as I was so sick. Results day arrived and I failed this subject by 4%, it was cruel! I explained I had Glandular Fever to my lecturer and he said “well that would explain a lot.”, he never advised me I could have appealed the result on the grounds of being sick but in hindsight he kinda did me a favour. But again back to being stubborn, I set about repeating the subject which meant repeating the year as there was no actual written exam. Half way through this I realised this just wasn’t for me. The hours were too intense, the course and the career really demanded too much from me and all the aspects I loved that kept me there, well I just didn’t love them enough to spend the rest of my life doing it putting up with the other stuff. I wasn’t happy.

  
I dreaded telling my parents, like I said I don’t do failure and admitting to my parents I had failed and was giving up something so important was one of the hardest things I have done. My Dad took it much better than Mum which I expected once I was happy he didn’t care, but like most mothers particularly Irish mothers mine is the ultimate worrier. “What do you mean you are giving up?”, “You can’t drop out!” ,”What are you going to do now?” ,”Your not sitting about the house everyday”,”You need to find something else.” , all of these questions fired at me, which I was expecting to be honest so I had the answers ready.

I will never be the person that sit’s around doing nothing, it’s not in my nature I have to be busy, I’m also notoriously independent in many ways, I find it difficult to ask someone for the loan of €20 even if I am giving it back to them an hour later. I have always worked hard at whatever I do, none of the above questions applied or were relevant to me. I had my new direction picked.

When I was turning 21, I planned my party to within an inch of it’s life, everything was perfect (Well apart from the cake but that is a whole other story). I loved the entire process, the ideas, the coordination, the venue, decoration planning, I actually got such a buzz from it. So I had decided I wanted to do a Marketing course specialising in PR and Event Management. The course was so different but a few similarities, it still allowed me to be creative and use my love of design. I sailed through every year, while the work was hard and at times tough I was good at the subjects, I understood them, I wanted to work on the project, reports etc. I loved it. I graduated in 2012 and I can honestly say changing the course was the best decision I ever made. (I still watch all the design shows, get strangely excited about cushions and armchairs and I can’t wait to build my own house with a blank canvas, there is still a wee designer in me πŸ™‚ )

  
Now 3 years out of college, I have organised events with hundreds of attendees, written newspaper articles, raised money for charity, the list goes on and I am only starting in my career. I go to work every day and love what I do, I learn something new everyday and no day is the same. No matter what career path you choose the  most important thing in life is to be happy. If you have got the course you wanted and you love it, great stuff. If you happen to choose a course that turn’s out not to be for you, it’s not the end of the world.

“Do what makes you happy and you will never work a day in your life”

“Don’t regret the decisions you make, regret the things you didn’t do”

Lots of Love

Laura

xxx

Pearly Whites πŸ’œ

Hello guys,

Hope you are all set for the weekend! At least the sun has made a little appearance, let’s hope it sticks around 😊

Tonight’s blog post is about teeth whitening! Lately a few people have mentioned to me about how white my teeth are so I thought I would share with you all the reason they are! 😊

  
I absolutely hate my teeth! If I could change everything about me in the morning, my teeth would be first on my hit list! I sucked my thumb as a child and as a result there is a gap between them, they are pointy, I hate them everything is just horrible! For years I never fully smiled in photos, always kept my mouth closed, rocking my best Victoria Beckham pout instead. Some day I will save up and get them sorted professionally. 

  
As a result of my hatred for my teeth I am always on the constant hunt for a home teeth whitening product that works, if they can’t be straight they can at least be white is my theory. I have spent a fortune on every high street tooth whitening product available which never really had any effect. I even have ordered the Crest tooth whitening strips online, (which do work temporarily but can damage your teeth 😁 ) so I would have tried anything for white teeth.
  
So a few months ago I started a new job, which led me across the Kin Range of Dental products. I had never heard of them before being honest. They are a range of Spanish dental products used and recommended by dentists. One of the products is a Whitening toothpaste. I began using this after all it was worth a shot, thought it would be similar to the other toothpastes I had tried in the past. I would love if I had a before picture for you, but I honestly wasn’t expecting it to work so well that I never thought of taking one. 

  
This is just a regular toothpaste, you can use everyday, is gentle on your teeth and as you can see from the pics my teeth are pretty white. It is a little more expensive at €8.30ish a packet but… I spent far more on products that didn’t work that I will happily pay that little bit more for something that does work & doesn’t damage my teeth, added to that I can now beam a smile in photos instead of looking miserable! Priceless! Literally the Carlsberg of Whitening products. It is available in Pharmacies nationwide. 

  
I have two tubes to give away to 2 lucky readers, all you have to do it tag someone in the comment section on Facebook! 😊 I’ll pick a winner on Sunday. 

Lots of Love 

Laura

Xxx